All of us had our high school love. You know the one that makes you go to school then, the one that you wished you danced with on your prom, the one that caused constellations of acne on your face. The one you thought you will end up with… I had that special someone as well. I really loved her, in fact for a very long time.
We had a very not so good history and that’s between the two of us. This post is not to hate her but I want to thank her. Last Saturday I went to a friend’s (Ms. A) despedida party. I knew she’s gonna be there. But since a very good friend came back here in the Philippines (Ms. J) and we haven’t seen each other for so long, I have to be there. I had realizations that, I have to grow and face what I have to face.
I met Ms. J at McDonald’s; I had my sprite float and waited for 15 minutes or so. We then go on to Ms. A’s party at her house; as usual the food was great and Ms. A’s parents were still the same, accommodating and caring of us. 30 minutes after SHE’s there. My past… she’s still the same, pretty.
It was a bit uncomfortable at first. We just smiled then we laughed and then took some pictures. We became at ease, talked about what happened for the last 5 months, asked how she’d been. She showed her man’s picture. To be honest I missed that, our normal conversations. We talked about our families, what keeps us busy and what plans we have.
5 months ago I was crying and asked why I made a fool of myself AGAIN. Why did I STILL expect something that I shouldn’t? Why did I still love her… questions answered a month after that, I saw a picture of her and her man. They looked so happy together. I know she’s happy and got what she wants. She’ll never be happy with me and I realized that I have to move on… badly!
As of now you all know. I did. =]
We went home together (because we live on the same town). I sat next to her and on our way, she asked if I have someone. I told her I was going out with Cath. I smiled and I know I blushed.
Now I can really say… Case closed…
This post is for my friend Ms. J! Joyce, I really really miss you and I’m glad we’ve seen each other again. You see Joyce is my twin in high school. hehe! She just knows so much about me and she’s really a family. She recently read one of my post and commented as “Muning”. I want to thank her for everything. 11 years of friendship and still counting. Joyce made me realize one important thing that night. Not all of us had a great highschool and I have to put aside all the ugly things that happened and be thankful of what remains… great friends like her. I’m happy Joyce found that someone else as well. To Joyce and Puccini, cheers! Love you both!=]