Thursday, October 16, 2008

The Other Side...

Ten minutes past four in the afternoon today, I was checking which polo shirt to wear, picked up a good pair of washed up jeans, took a bath, washed and moisturized my face, wear my fave perfume. I was really prepped up. Not for a date, but I attended a mass and a Novena.

It’s been a long time since I attended a Wednesday Novena. I don’t want to make promises of attending one cause I have a bad habit of breaking them so when I decided to come I really must come. Yeah yeah. Am I sounding too religious now? Wait a little bit cause there’s more. Hehe

I took the opportunity while staying here in the province and trying to reflect what is my next decision. To be honest, every time I think of my situation, it feels like I can’t breathe. I’m literally grasping some air to inspire.

My mom told me the novena will start at 5pm. I was there 15 minutes earlier. Some of us cannot control noticing things or some people for the matter especially in a solace place. A school is settled near the church so some kids will pass by the church and I can’t help to recall what I was doing when I was as young as them. I also noticed a husband watching every step her very pregnant wife does, looking after her and taking really good care of her up to the moment they seated. Also noticed two old couples, the old man slowly works his wrist sharing a fan with his wife. The choir was rehearsing, the sacristans setting the altar, and the “manang’s” fixing their veil.

The novena started at exactly 15 minutes after 5. When we were young, we prayed that our parents will be safe and God will always look after them. (hanggang ngayon naman diba?). We also prayed that our pet dog or your favorite toy will always be there with you. When we were young, we prayed that our yayas will not torment us to get into sleep. We prayed that we don’t get into fight with our siblings.

When we reached adolescence, we prayed that we’ll do well in school, make our parents proud. We prayed that special someone will notice us. We prayed for our friends.

But now, I didn’t ask for a miracle to get me out of a situation I could have prevented earlier. I didn’t ask for a thing that I didn’t deserve, I prayed that I will be enlightened by this situation. That I will accept what will happen to me and be open minded about it... That I wasn’t placed in a situation that I can’t handle…

Sometimes we are placed in circumstances that we wish we can escape. We wish there was another way. We wished it could end beautifully. But if the options for you is seemed to be blurry and makes you confused or it may seem there is no way out. You can always have your FAITH.

9 comments:

KRIS JASPER said...

whatever circumstances those are, i hope you get out of it soon, and well. Trials are part of life, they make us strong. I know it's a cliche, but what else can i say?

Hope you are ok, Doc Jc.

gillboard said...

Ako I'm not religious, but if I really am in need of something, I go to St. Jude. It has yet to fail me, whenever I'm feeling desperate about something (except for a lovelife).

David Edward said...

i dont know what to say..

White said...

direct to my heart!

a friend once said to me that there is no situation or problem that we can't handle. and i guess, it's true. we just have to be open and ready when the worst time comes.

ingat doc ced....:)

Ely said...

My mom thinks I'm not God fearing, so me attending a novena would definitely make her really really happy...

Curbside Puppet said...

nice to see your blog up and running again.

yeye said...

grabe pumorma ka pa para sa novena ah hehehe

Godbless you always kuya ced. :) kaya natin toh. keep the good fight of faith!

RJ said...

Tama. FAITH!

beero said...

it's also been a long time since i last attended a mass. if i'm not mistaken march pa yun. after a long absence in the church, i attended a mass during our recent visit in bacolod for the masskara festival.