There are lots of things to be thankful for. Despite what we’re going through, despite how many falls we will encounter, we must look everything as a blessing. One of the blessings I have are my friends. Years passed and I knew who really my friends are. Friendship is not merely measured by the years that you spent but after all those years even though they were physically absent, by heart you know they are with you. In every decision you make, in every tough times you go, you will have some reflection of what would they think if they’re with you.
Friendship is not also measured of how much you know about that person, where he/she lives, knows his/her digits, knows about his/her family. It is neither measured by how you met them and recalling to everyone that very first event.
I have the greatest reason why would I become ok. It’s because of my friends. Aside from my faith which I hold on tightly and my family who supports me in every step I make, my friends are here even though we not see so often. I know they are here.
For the past few days I was talking with some of them.
JB from med school…
JB : “tol, musta?”
Ced: “eto mejo namomroblema…. Blah blah blah”
JB: “ganun ba? Sinabi mo na ba sa parents mo? Ano sabi nila?”
Ced: “yep nasabi ko na… alam mo naman yung mga yun. Suportado naman nila ko kung anu magiging desisyon ko. Nahihiya lng ako. Masyado na kasing pabigat.”
JB: “alam mo tol ikaw lang naman nagiisip nyan, pangit kung ganyan ka magisip kasi sabi mo nga suportado ka nila. Alam naman nila na kaya mo at ginawa mo lahat. Alam rin naming dito sa shool na ginawa mo na rin lahat. May mga bagay na beyond sa capacity na natin kaya minsan di natin namimeet yung mga expectations natin. Kung bumagsak ka man, may purpose un. Lahat ng pinagpupuyatan at sacrifices natin kapalit nun isang buhay ng magiging pasyente natin. Kaw, gusto mo pa ba ipagpatuloy? Kaya mo naman e…”
ced: musta k n jan?
muning: ok nman
muning: kaw ang musta?
ced: oks na naman ako
ced: eto nagiisip
muning: kwentuhan mko
muning: nsan ka ngaun?
ced: sa bahay na
muning: ano b tlg pnka prob?
ced: kasi… blah blah blah..
muning: ur doin ur best nman eh
muning: ano na plan m?
muning: phinga muna?
ced: vacation muna ko
ced: pero ayun
muning: ano b nman un itry mo pa ulet
muning: isa pang try ced
ced: oo nga e
ced: tsaka meron akong di maiwan…hehehe
muning: oo kya wag ka mhihya mgasabe saken
Pipay from medtech days… (I was about to meet them last Sunday, pero I stayed sa bahay, to my bad…)
Pipay: di ka pumunta samen…
Ced: sorry po, nagpramis kasi ko namagstay muna ko sa bahay (sinungaling pa muna!lol)
Pipay: sabihin ko sayo tom…
Ced: baket punta ka dito sa bahay? Hehehe!
Pipay: despedida ko yung kanina…
Ced: uhmmmm…. After 5 mins… sorry pips, seryoso? San k naman punta? Sorry talaga…
Pipay: mejo matatagalan ulet pagkikita natin… bukas na flight ko
Ced: naku, biglaan naman, what time? Patago ba plan mo?
Pipay: tom 11 flight ko, tnx ced, ingats ka plagi. I am proud of you no matter what. Kaya mo yan. Pray lang tayo. Sorry di ako nakapagpaalam sa inyo ng maayos, sana maintindihan nyo. Gusto ko lang umalis ng tahimik… yung walang nagkicritisize. Ingats ka palagi.
oi! sorry i haven't been able to chat with you in a while. things have been getting quite busy…
anyway, just read your blog and i'm sorry to hear that you're going through another rough time in your life.
“i believe that you can still/will achieve what you're working so hard for. people say that if you don't work hard for you want or you just give up, then perhaps that's not what you wanted all along. if this is what you truly want to dedicate your life to, then all the pain, suffering and hard work will be worth it. no one said that it would be easy and i know that i don't have to tell you that, you've definitely had your fair share of hard times and there'll continue to be more, so brace yourself and be strong! when you achieve your goal, the all the more sweeter/satisfying it'll be when you look back and see all that you overcome.”
“so don't feel guilty if you're feeling so down, it's normal. anyone in your situation would feel the same. it's ok, let your frustrations out, don't keep it bottled up inside. i say you should go on a trip, relax, do something special for yourself, figure things out, get yourself back together and face your problems head on. i know you can do it.”
Sharing not only laughter but also sharing your down moments to your friends and making you feel that they are with you is the best gift you’ll get from them. Sabi nga nila “malalaman mo ang totoo mong kaibigan sa mga oras na gipit ka”. At matagal ko na napatunyan yan. What makes friendship stand out from the rest is when they make you feel blessed and makes you feel warm every time you talk.
There were lots of people who texted me and said great things and I really appreciated that. And definitely I want to thank everyone who visits my blog and those who gave great advices. This post is for the people who continuously believes in me. Your advices really meant a lot.
Now I can say I made my decision. I will stand now and move forward. For my future, for my family, for my friends and for YOU!
For the mean time, I will enjoy my vacation…
Nga pla, happy 5th monthsary to my blog last 20th!