Saturday, May 31, 2008

My Days Are Numbered

I only have 10 days left starting today. Another 10 months of less sleep, thousands of pages of books to read, gallons of coffee to drink, countless sheets of papers and patient’s history to pass and pens that I will lose, and tears that I will save for the end of each semester.

Unlike before I am less excited and that’s the sad truth. Why? I am not sure… you see I really want this. I cannot give up on this. For the last two months of staying inside the house I filled my thoughts with optimism. I am optimistic, sadly not that enthusiastic.

But I can say that I enjoyed my last two months. Talking to some of the co-bloggers, getting their opinions and making new friends were a great summer get away for me, way much better than a trip in Boracay. Though I know my mom will kill me due to our escalating bills. Hehehe!

I was back and forth to my dorm last week because I have to clean my room and check what I lack to make my stay there more comfortable. While cleaning, I paused for a while and looked at some pictures that I posted on my wall. I smiled a little, we were complete then.

10 more days to go; 10 days of online time, chatting and blogging left. What I really wanted to say is I’ll be spending little time here soon. If I really wanted to become what I really want then I have to make a choice. But that doesn’t mean I will neglect this blog and will not visit yours. It may not be as often but I promise I’ll do it every chance I will get.

To be honest it will be a challenge for me. I have to admit having my own lappie and internet was one of the wrong decisions I made so far. It really interrupted my studies and my concentration. But the risk was worth it. I learned a lot from you and most importantly I learned and accepted my mistakes and failures. I was still thinking of not bringing the lappie with me in my dorm but I realized it’s not what I needed to do. I need to have self control.
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By the way, I watched Sex and the City last Friday. I was asked for the nth time if it’s worth the watch. I can’t say a thing aside from that the movie is made for the people who watched the series. It’s more of a closure to the character’s lives. I like Samantha. She’s so my Cougar! Hahaha!


“Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are” - Carrie Bradshaw

“That's the key to having it all: stop expecting it to look like what you thought it was going to look like. It's true of the fall lines, and it's true of relationships.” – Enid (Carrie’s Vogue Editor in Chief)

35 comments:

Dakilang Tambay said...

10 days na lang di pa tayo nagkikita.. ang daya..

sino kasama mo nanood ng sex and the city

cedeux said...

ako lng po magisa=[

oo nga e, di pa kita nakikita=[

Camille said...

waah gusto ko rin manood! hm.. nakakatkot naman un start ng post mo.. kinabahan ako.. hahaha.. naku lalaki nanaman mga eye baggages ko.. hehe..

Ely said...

pasukan na...kakamiss naman pumasok sa school. uh, Never saw a single episode of Sex and the City.

cedeux said...

@doc cams - noud tayo. oks lng sakin ulitin! gising ka pa? tulog na! hehehhe

@ ely - sabi ko sau swap muna tayo. kahit 1 week. hehehe

veRn BuRn IV said...

bak to skul na! galingan naten. kudos!

Belen said...

Ingat. study hard.

Eyebags said...

naku goodluck sa countdown. ako rin may big countdown rin..weehehe.

dalhin mo lappie mo! dalhin mo! para mareach ka namin.wehehe.

si lunes pala eto.. ipinagblobloghop ko lang si eyebags. ang ingles blog ko.wehehe.

thanks.

Camille said...

naku baka may magalit.. hahaha.. oo nga late na ko natutulog.. tsk

Nash said...

nako wag kang ganyan it's just a matter of self control ced!

aminado ako isang malaking TUKSO ang internet pero try to control COntrol CONTROL!

waaaaaaaaa

sana Sex and The City nalang pinanood ko instead of Indiana Jones LOL :P

my-so-called-Quest said...

@vern - yup gagalingan tlaga natin. mata lang walang latay sa kanila! heheheh
salamat bro=]

@NayBelen - salamat po. mano po=]

my-so-called-Quest said...

@aleli - di po ko aalis. hinay lng ng onti=] add ko rin sa link si eyebags=]

@docCams - may magaglit? di naman nya malalaman. nasa UST ka. dito naman sya sa FEU. ahihihihi. juk lng po=]

my-so-called-Quest said...

@nash - mamimiss mo ba ko? hehehehhe

ge na nga dalhin ko ang lappie. walang net nga lang. hehehe. juk!

oo sana nag SATC k. pero pwede mo pa naman mapanuod e.=]

Cavite Daily Photos said...

Hello! Maraming Salamat po sa pagdaan sa Cavite Daily Photo Balik po kayo kuya ah! Saan po kayo sa Cavite? jeje

Steven Que^^

wanderingcommuter said...

pareho tayo ng narararamdaman... kapag lalo mo'ng inaanticipate para lalong nakaka-kaba. kaya siguro payo ko na lang chillax lang! hehehe

JM said...

i still havent seen the film! grr.. hehe this week dapat tlga! hehe

dean said...

tama, bawasan ang chat!! hehe!

Points of View said...

Hmm.."you are just optimistic but not enthusiastic"..hehe!natawa naman ako sa idea...but very realistic at your age though.

gudluck in your studies!

nice site here.

Dakilang Tambay said...

pakita ka na sakin.. sana sinama mo ako manood. ang daya!

cedeux said...

@cavite - sure lagi ako dadaan sayo!=]

@wandering - hahahay nako nakakakaba nga. kaya natin to=]

KRIS JASPER VAN DYKE said...

i'll blame blogging if i fail next week.. flight ko na sa thursday... c ya!

cedeux said...

@jm - kento ko na! ge na o=]


@dean - madalang na nga e=]

cedeux said...

@points of view - oo nga e. malabo ba? hehe. slaamat s apagdaan=]

@mia - nasan ka ba? punta ka dito? hehehhe

cedeux said...

@kuya kris - galingan mo po ha! Good Luck sayo=]

Leyn ♥ said...

good luck college people! kaya mo yan, wag lang dalasan ang paghihiatus pag pasukan na. :)

cedeux said...

@ms. Leyn - salamat! baon ko ha! hhehhehe


ingats=]

churvah said...

“Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are” - Carrie Bradshaw

i totally agree..

uy..wag mo msyadao tatagalan ang pag hiatus..hehehe!

pero syempre study first.
goodluck sa studies mo!

Jericho said...

omg! don't leave me ... chos! hehehe at least we'll still you around..;)

beero said...

sayang kasi ngayon lang ako nakadaan sa site. now that you only have few more days to blog. but it's nice that i dropped by your site before you leave. i'll visit this site more often. BTW, napadaan ako dito dahil kay POPOY.

acey said...

you go for your dream, kuya c!!! i believe in you and wish you the best in med school. kayang-kaya mo yan.

Dra. Rio said...

blog hop ka pa din ha...ma mimiss ko mga entries..dalhin mo lang si lappie mo..in case na hindi ka masyado toxic.e di blog ka..=)

cedeux said...

@churvah - di naman po ko mawawala. at least twice a week nakalaan sa blogging=]

@jericho - di kita iiwan... pangako ko sayo. hehehhe. anu ba yun. hehe

cedeux said...

@beero - dadaan ako sa blog mo rin! salamaat salamat=]

@acey - tnx lil sis! bake mo ko ng cookies pambaon ko ha=]

cedeux said...

@draRio - opo naman dadalaw ako sa inyo. salamat po ng marami=]

> Vanny said...

aww. kawawa naman. nanuod mag isa. di ko yata kaya yun.. hehe.. di kc nagsasama eh! ;)

anyway, i know you'll do good in ur studies coz you know that you like what you are doing. just go for the gold! kie kie?

dat's good that you are optimist. As i remember Rick Warren said in his book, "The way you see your life shapes your life. How you define life determines your destiny.". so just keep on going. maybe thinking that lots of people believe in you can make you more enthusiast.

aja aja ced! i know you can do it. =)

oww. a little behaving will surely help you. harhar. ^_^

tc always and use your time properly. *wink wink*