This week has never been happier for me. Though we’re still in a middle of it, I just wish it will end well. It feels fun yet weird recalling everything that happened since the first day of med school up to present with my friends. Today, I even got the chance to talk to some my friends that once were classmates of mine and now trying to survive the second semester of junior year. I wonder if this is a sign or not?
Most of the time we were laughing at my “pagkaantipatiko” and recalling how we turn uncomfortable events to a laughing matter. Though med life is taking its toll on us we make sure at least we enjoy each other’s company. Now I realized how much I value my friends here. Some may be ahead but will still make sure and search for you and have a nice conversation. There were the ones who remain and make you feel like a part of their family. Some will look up to you and in return you are proud of them too. Some shares their deepest secrets and at the end of the day you’ll realize how it meant to you that they trusted you.
One time I laughed at one situation, a friend was asking for some advice cause she got a not-so-low mark in one exam, and I said, “oks pa yan, kaya pa yan! Mababawi mo pa. konting puyat pa” and right after that I told her that I’m nervous causewill the average for my shifting exams in the same subject will be a trouble for me. And she repeated the same advice I gave her! hehehe
One jokingly told me “wow! Pumayat ka!” and she immediately said… “ako naman, sabihan mo rin ako na payat!” hehe.
Few of my friends knew that I had the plan of taking leave of absence. Maybe some of you will be in shock now. But that plan was unsuccessful. Why? Well first, I have no exact reason why and what to tell the administration why I wanted to leave for a while, if the issue of soul searching is valid, why not? But I bet it won’t. Secondly the semester is almost over. 2 weeks to be exact. Third, I have nowhere to go.
It’s good to hear that your friends are supporting you and there with you no matter what. Though we may have been separated due to some instances, it’s nice to know that for a while they shared a piece of them with me. And for those 3 short years we know each other here that made me feel vindicated and accepted.
For this post I want to thank them for being supportive and understanding and just letting me know and making me feel I belong is a blessing for me. I also want to thank them for keeping my spirits high in times like this. For the fact that I may not be with them most of the time and comforting them, they still manage to stay. Thank you.
So I have to face what I’ve got to face right now. Just keep on moving and believing. It’s hard to explain to you how and why and tell every intricate detail. But I can tell you what I feel, it feels like I’m in the middle of an old and rickety wooden bridge and some force is pushing me to take an immediate step. One wrong move and for sure it will take me to my downfall.