Friday, June 12, 2009

I am privileged

For the past year I lost my self-confidence and sense of trust. That trust to myself that I can make difference, that all of the sacrifices and failures that I endure will soon be fruitful. I also lost that drive. It’s true that Medicine is not for the weak at heart. Most of the time, you will lose track of what’s happening outside, with your family, with your friends, even what’s happening in your country. But I guess it’s normal to ask yourself, if what you’re doing is still really what you want. And sometimes, with the help of someone, you will find the answer to that question. That still, Yes, I want to become a Physician.

I remember when I was a kid and almost half of the class would say they want to become a doctor when they grow up. Then when I stepped in high school, the number of aspiring doctors declined. Practically speaking, what would we get after spending at least four years of studying again after college then earning little after? Specialization and subspecialties will take you forever and medicine is a continuous learning process, meaning, old theories can be debunked and new approved theories should be applied.

I never felt special until yesterday and realize that I am one of the few that was given a privilege to study Medicine. Well, all who study medicine is privileged, no matter where you study; no matter if you failed a subject or two, it felt special that this opportunity was given.

I’m not showing off this to all. It’s just a wake-up call for me and I really need to look forward into something. As what they say, “the more things that is given to someone, the more we expect him to give in return”. Meaning, a Physician is placed in a pedestal wherein people look up into him and we expect more from him.

To those who continuously visits my blog. Big thanks for you! And I want to apologize if I forgot to ask how you’ve been, especially my blogger friends. I was in the verge again of closing the blog but I really needed this as an outlet.


11 comments:

gillboard said...

nice to hear from you again doc. tagal mong nawala sa sirkulasyon..

ced said...

@gb - ahahah! oo nga, grabe, akala ko nung una di ko kaya iwan ang blog. hehe

J.D. Lim said...

We need more people like you. Determined. Strong willed. Life savers. I do hope you'll go on with your life and don't forget that a lot of your fellow countrymen are waiting for your kind and loving service. :)

Mabuhay ka po doc! :D

RJ said...

Parang hindi ko nakuha kung bakit napatunayan mong privileged ka, Doc Ced...

Pero, go, go, go! Kailangan ang mga nagme-Medisinang tulad mo, lalo na pandemic na ang Swine Flu ngayon. Hinihintay ka ng buong mundo, Doc Ced.

yeye said...

eh kung kami lang mayaman, magmemed ako. ahahaha


binabawi ko na. katamad mag-aral LOL


okay yan doc. pagpatuloy mo yan. magiging life-savers na tayo. sobrang hirap man ng trabaho natin pero kung ito talaga calling natin, y not! anyway, He's always with us naman to guide us... :)


galingan mo kuya doc :P as always :)

-nurse yeye

Allen Yuarata said...

I wanted to become a Lawyer when I was a kid. Later I realized that law isn't just my thing.

taking up medicine comes with a really really big responsibility. Kaya I salute you for the courage and the determination to serve and save people's lives.

Pag nagkasakit ako, libre na ko sayo ha. hahahaha!

KRIS JASPER said...

2 months ago I felt the same. I just lied low.

Then I got inspired to blog again. Hopefully you'll feel the spark again soon.

Curbside Puppet said...

happy father's day sa tatay mo and sa bayaw mo. bati na tayo ah. please?

Xtel said...

I'm so proud of you, friend! Miss you na...

David Edward said...

akala mo hindi ko makikita ulit ito ah.. ahahaha.. nag iinarte ka pa.. tsktsk.. at bakit my mga ganung drama na magcoclose? artista rin?

dumaan din ako sa point na un, pero bakit ko iisipin ang ilang tao na nakakasagabal sa kasiyahan ng blog ko kung mas marami naman ang napapasaya nito. un! ahaha..

ingats!

shenanigans said...

buti hindi mo naisip na i-close toh kung hindi..... hindi rin kita makikilala ;p