Saturday, July 17, 2010

The Marionette

Everyone thinks Jim has it all, a career in the best law firm in the City, a loving girlfriend who can launch more ships than Helen of Troy, an athletic physique, a sports car given by his dad and adored by his friends.


But none of them knew what Jim has been through, before achieving what people think is a “perfect life”.


Prior to Jim’s so-called-success, he’s been following orders from his dad. At young age, he was hit everytime when he made mistakes even for the little things, his dad arranged the schools he must attend, meeting the crème de la crème of the city, even his job at the best law firm. Jim even thought his soon to be engagement seems to be a set-up, thanks to his dad. Deep inside, Jim felt like he’s playing a part and he wishes he could escape. Adding to that are the prying eyes of his relatives, always snooping on what he do or where he goes.


What Jim really wanted is either to become a journalist, write in freelance for a magazine or a newspaper. When he was in Fourth Year High School, he’s always been fascinated with European Literature and Culture. He treasured most of the books he collected about Europe, he felt like those were his ticket to escape.


He also dreamt of becoming a Pastry Chef and studying in Le Cordon Bleu in Paris or study and work in Europe. He enjoys cooking so much. Though there were few memories he remember with his late mother, he always enjoys watching his mom cook when he was a kid. He remembers very well the scent of rosemary and lemon with the roasting pork loin or the sweet scent of cinnamon and apples on his pie, tickling his nose while he waits as it cools.


He imagined enjoying the Mediterranean Climate in Athens, touring the remains of different temples. He also dreamt of visiting different Operas in Frankfurt and eating Bethmännchen, a pastry made of marzipan and almonds then after that drinking Pilsner or even watching the Grand Prix or Monte Carlo Rally in Monaco and enjoying the La Condamine harbor view at night.


He loves his girlfriend but for him, he’s not ready to get married yet. Perhaps it’s because he hasn’t enjoyed his life fully. He doesn’t want to break what they have now but he felt it’s too soon for a nuptials. Though he thinks it’s wrong to have those thoughts ‘cause she’s been there for him for almost 8 years.


He felt like he must please his dad all the time. That Jim must continue what his dad wished he had become. The reason why he’s doing all this sacrifices is for his late mom, though he knew what she’ll say if she’s still alive. Someday somehow, he wishes to cut all the strings attached, that he at least can decide and do what he wants. And learn to tell his dad that he had enough.

26 comments:

Nimmy said...

hirap nun ah. pleasing others before yourself! uhmmm. parang double meaning. hahahaha

Désolé Boy said...

medyo nakarelate ako ng konting-konti lang...

i love music kxe but my dad won't support that interest and would often say, pambakla lang daw yun (ehem)...so yun, i had to do self studies and taught myself how to play piano and other instruments...

anyway, pakisabi na lang kay Jim, darating din ang araw ng paglaya...the day when the strings would be cut, then he would be a marionette no more.

my-so-called-Quest said...

@ nimmy - kaw talaga! hahaha pero totoo, i guess he's just a good son. hehe

@desole - why doest it feel wehave to prove something bagao magawa ang gusto natin? hehe

jim's just an imaginary character though. hehe

Désolé Boy said...

somehow i knew (wink)

my-so-called-Quest said...

@desole - i said hi for you pa rin! hehe. salamat sa pagdaan! :P

orallyours said...

don't we all want to please our dads? i for one worked doubly hard at this because i have always thought i'm a disappointment to him.
potah dito pako nag-emote sa blog mo.
on a lighter note, my mouth watered dun sa foodie part. and i have always fantasized about going to les roches

my-so-called-Quest said...

@orally - haha, oks lang naman magemote. libre naman! here here.

nagutom din tuloy ako. hehehe

victor said...

Sometimes it's therapeutic to hear about "perfect" people who are not so "perfect" at all. Thanks for posting this. Kidding. LOL.

Seriously, that's sad. I wonder what's keeping Jim to chase his own dreams.

my-so-called-Quest said...

@victor - haha, this is to remind us that we're still lucky in spite of our imperfections.

i wonder too. hehe, i may make a sequel. pag sinipag. hehe

victor said...

Hopefully, Jim would have the courage to do what he wants on the sequel. :)

my-so-called-Quest said...

@victor - i was thinking of making a 180 degrees turn with his life. hehe
or maybe i should stop na ang with that. :P

FerBert said...

story of my life. lol

HELLO MY NAME IS JIM! HAHA

my-so-called-Quest said...

@FB - JIMboy? lol! musta na utol FB?

David Edward said...

so ikaw ito? another inarte? hahha.. joke lang.. alam mo, those things are some form of discipline na rin eh. ang maganda dun kung if ur gifted, you will be able to do different things simultaneously. you make them happy and proud and you also be able to do what you wanted to do, pero on a later date na, when you have the freedom and that you proved to them na yes you CAN.. ^_^ parang wala namang sense ung sinabi ko.. lolz

my-so-called-Quest said...

@david - uhm sabi ko ng "kathang isip" sa tags. lol. kaw ata nakaelate e. hehe

ʎonqʎʇıɔ said...

ang galing! parang may black and white party sa comments mo! haha

i think at some point, he has to learn to start living for himself. it would be nice to think that it's possible for someone to be so selfless that he would allow his environment to dictate his life kaso parang malabo yata yun.

galing ha. this made me think. :D

anteros' dominion said...

at oo, nariyan ako sa sitwasyon na ganiyan

pero i chose na cut the strings

kaso the price i had to pay was accepting the fact na galit ang pudrakels (tatay) ko sa ginawa ko

my-so-called-Quest said...

@citybuoy - haha, ngayon ko lang napansin yun! i think jim needs to man it u a little bit. hehe :D

salamat sa pagdaan

@Antero - well nagawa mo na, your decision has it pros and cons. but either way hindi mabigat sa loob mo diba. good for you. :D

Jag said...

Aabangan ko ang emancipation of Jim hehehe...ano kaya ang mangyayari? hehehe...

Enjoyin mo lang ang buhay parekoy!

my-so-called-Quest said...

@jag - baka maconstipation! hehehe

uy bat ganun di madetect ng blogroll ko ang updates sa blog mo. :(

Jag said...

Naku! Marami na talagang nagsasabi nyan parekoy ewan! Hndi ko n alam anong gagawin ko nacheck ko n kac lahat sa settings ko... sighs!

my-so-called-Quest said...

@jag - awww. oks lang click ko na lang palagi. haha

kcatwoman said...

hi, is this just a story? or something true... please let us know!

my-so-called-Quest said...

@kcat - fiction po.:D
salamat sa pagdaan!

iurico said...

i almost thought the post was not fiction.

good work!

my-so-called-Quest said...

@iurico - don't i get a star sir? haeheheh