Cases 2 and 3

CASE 2

Last Saturday we went to a wake of a high school friend. Tragically the complication of chemotherapy was the culprit. Imagine, a 25 year old male died of stroke. Sadly a year prior he was diagnosed with stage 4 gastric cancer. I was asking her sister what were the initial symptoms her brother felt. Sabi nya lang, he felt back pains then went to upper abdominal pain. I asked her kung nagrereflux yung kuya niya before, she said wala siyang marecall. And for history of smoking and alcoholic beverage drinking, she said her brother never smokes and occasionally drinks.

I remember him in high school na always being teased by his classmates and he’s just cool about it. Pangiti ngiti. He’s also nice to talk to, kasi he really listens. Yung tipong interesado makinig. There were couple of times na sinabay nya ko papasok sa school nung college kami. Along the way lang naman daw kasi yung school ko sa school nya.

It’s sad that he could’ve done a lot pa sana. Have his own kids and family.

I know he’s in a better place now, kung saan mas less ang suffering. And he’ll always be included in my prayers.

CASE 3

Well change topic. I know I may sound selfish.

It’s sad that after all those years looking up to someone and they managed to disappoint you, Big time!

I have this ex-friend/classmate; we actually live in the same town. He entered med school a year ahead of me. Last Saturday I found out that he bad mouthed me and my school. I don’t know what he exactly said but “second-rate” and “di maganda” in a sentence with my name and my school sounds offensive. I know I shouldn't make a big deal about this and just think of my own problems. Naisip ko nga na wag na lang patulan kasi kung tutuusin e chismis lang, pero I think I need to ventilate.

It’s sad that I speak highly of him and really happy with his achievements. I even look up to him. Nakakalungkot din why he didn’t said that to my face, mas okay pa sana. I know he studied and trained in the BEST MED SCHOOL IN THE COUNTRY, pero why talk about me in that manner, it’s plain rude. I know some people who came from that same school and some are still studying in that school, pero hindi naman ganoon ang ugali.

Sabi nga nila, “wala naman sa School yan, nasa estudyante din”. I remember one of my consultant saying that “kahit na magaling ka sa academics, pero kulang ka naman sa paguugali at pakikisama e mahihirapan ka din sa pagiging doctor.”

I just wish him good luck and hope his trash talking will take him to excellence.

I don’t know what‘s the exact reason why he said that. Actually I’m still thinking why he probably said that, siguro malaki lang tlaga ang ulo nya or he’s jealous that I’m gorgeous. Hehehe! Biro lang! :P

This is the last time I’ll talk about it. Masyadong mababaw pagusapan. Like my high school friend who passed away regarding his bullies, i'll be cool about it! Pagdadasal ko na lang din siya.

Or suntukan na lang! :P

x's - to people from that school, i don't generalize. love ko pa din ang mga taga duon ko na friends ko, di lang naman siya ang nagaral dun. hehehe. kayo, baka gusto nyo din mahalin ko. hehehe

Post-fiesta post

Tell me, are there times that you think of how will you die? Or what if you incurred a debilitating illness or maybe at a young age you met an accident that will hinder your dreams. The last time we talked about this, we were coming back to our dorm from my house in Cavite. Yes, mid exam week and I invited few friends (4 actually) to come over to my house. I decided we should go right after our 7:30-10am exam that day and a good timing for the “bisperas”. We don’t have any exam the following day so it was a clean plan. I asked a friend if he could bring his car with him and we voluntarily full tanked the gas. It was a 2 ½ hour drive. One of my friend who came last two years for the same occasion told everybody in the car that we serve a lot and has different dishes and for the nth time he repeated how he liked and missed the Menudo. Hehe

One of my friends who'scoming is a Muslim so I requested my mom to cook at least 3 menus that doesn’t have any pork or any trace that a pork flavor infused to it. Good thing there was no traffic, So we got home to the expected time. We settled for a while then we ate. They served fried tilapia with sweet and sour sauce, sinigang na sugpo, alimasag, morcon, hamonado, fried chiken and of course the menudo. I ate rice by the way. Haha! After we ate they played at the computer shop then around 5 pm we ate again and decided to come back here in QC.

As expected the traffic was worst and since we still lack sleep from that morning's review and exam we ended up talking what ifs. Until it came to the topic if given a chance, how do you want to die?

I said I don’t want to die old. “anu na lang itsura ko sa pictures nun?” ehehe. Maybe I will die in a disease but hopefully not that painful or an accident but not gory. Demanding diba? Hehe. I also told them I never experienced a holdup or be snatched. Maybe I will die on that way? One of my friend told us that a gun was pointed at him when he was a freshmen in FEU Morayta. I was thinking if I was in his situation what will I do? What will u do if you were?

On my way back here again, I was thinking what if I got into an accident right after I graduated or passed the board exam. What will be my attitude towards it? Will I easily accept that or possibly and the worst I will change for the fact I cannot accept that faith. Pasensya na ha kung ano ano naiisip ko. Kasi naman, you have these ideas of diseases and what are their ssymptoms and clinical manifestations. And later you will tell yourself… what if…

And for your opinion, if you have an option to die… tell me what is it…