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Wow! It feels like I’m starting all over again. It’s been like what? My last serious post I think was last September 2009! Matagal na din!

So kamusta na nga ba ako?

Cute pa din! :D

Diba Kuya Mak? Kuya White? Popoy? Tere? Hehe

On a serious note, medyo naging busy lang sa school. Yep, nasa school pa din ako.

Sila nanay, tatay at isang kuya, papunta ng NY for vacation papunta kay ate this July. So, ayun maiiwan ako dito magisa for 2 months. Saan kaya ako tatambay? (aside sa dorm ko or sino papatambayin ko sa dorm ko?)

Actually I was thinking of taking my internship dun din kay ate. I’m not sure for how long pero I was told na pwede naman dun mag internship for 2 months. Yun nga lang mas malaki yung bayad pero come and think about it, if dun ako magiintern, it’ll be easy for me to find a job there as a doctor after magtake ng necessary exams.

Kayo? Kamusta naman kayo?

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Well, Hello There...

Mood: slightly perplexed

Why do we always open those old boxes were we kept our memories, rereading those letters that were written in those cheesy pads, rechecking old pictures where you wish Photoshop was already invented and even looking to those old gifts. Sometimes, it’s fun to reminisce such memories since those are the things that you kept and brought you so much joy. Maybe those memories are the once that changed your life, turned it 360 degrees. Or maybe those memories are the once that keeps you sane now.

But reminiscing is not a good reason for as to dwell so much in the past. That’s the reason why do we need to move on. But how can you say you really moved on? How long will it take? Does it have a deadline?

But seriously, this is not about moving on, I just needed an intro. Hehehe. But I’m torn between coming or not?

I marked my calendar as of this afternoon. November 7th is the date, and that’s Saturday. Will I come?

I am privileged

For the past year I lost my self-confidence and sense of trust. That trust to myself that I can make difference, that all of the sacrifices and failures that I endure will soon be fruitful. I also lost that drive. It’s true that Medicine is not for the weak at heart. Most of the time, you will lose track of what’s happening outside, with your family, with your friends, even what’s happening in your country. But I guess it’s normal to ask yourself, if what you’re doing is still really what you want. And sometimes, with the help of someone, you will find the answer to that question. That still, Yes, I want to become a Physician.

I remember when I was a kid and almost half of the class would say they want to become a doctor when they grow up. Then when I stepped in high school, the number of aspiring doctors declined. Practically speaking, what would we get after spending at least four years of studying again after college then earning little after? Specialization and subspecialties will take you forever and medicine is a continuous learning process, meaning, old theories can be debunked and new approved theories should be applied.

I never felt special until yesterday and realize that I am one of the few that was given a privilege to study Medicine. Well, all who study medicine is privileged, no matter where you study; no matter if you failed a subject or two, it felt special that this opportunity was given.

I’m not showing off this to all. It’s just a wake-up call for me and I really need to look forward into something. As what they say, “the more things that is given to someone, the more we expect him to give in return”. Meaning, a Physician is placed in a pedestal wherein people look up into him and we expect more from him.

To those who continuously visits my blog. Big thanks for you! And I want to apologize if I forgot to ask how you’ve been, especially my blogger friends. I was in the verge again of closing the blog but I really needed this as an outlet.

Last Chance

We make different reactions on different news we heard. The only difference is that how we handle ourselves in such situations. Don’t you hate those unguarded moments that you just wish the person asking would just shut up or you just wish you can vanish immediately?

I was told last Friday that a past love is now engaged and planning to wed this year.

Few friends were asking me what I feel. I hope this post, though some of them cannot read this, but I guess this way is my only manner of releasing what I really feel. I rarely talk to them of what I think if the situation is about me.

First and the truth is I’m really really happy for her. That she found that person that will take care of her and that someone love her for who she is. And from the images of them that I see, they two deserve each other. They deserve that bond. Both of them are in the right age and from what I heard, she learns a lot from him.

Secondly, I am not hurt but there is that tiny pinch. Maybe it’s a usual thing to feel? It’s a sort of wake up call for me and asked myself of where I am now. I’m no near to any success career wise and relationship wise. But to be clear, with that news, it made me realize that this is the time that I have to be serious. I will make that news and them as my motivation. That soon I’ll be happy too.

Third, there is a huge difference of what I feel to them, what I feel to the situation and what do I feel about myself from what I heard and all are miles and miles away from bitterness.

Lastly, a friend asked me if ever I’ll get invited, will I come? No, because it’s their day. And that’s the time we celebrate them. And it’s not the time to celebrate a pity party. (imagine that as a scene in a movie. Hahaha)

So there, again I want to congratulate them. And to my real friends who can read this, you know who you are. Don’t worry. I’m okay.

Hahas and Hehes

I know most of you already watched The Dark Knight. Yesterday right after my exam I hailed a taxi from here in Fairview wishing to reach the 11am screening in Trinoma. Unfortunately I didn’t make it. So I decided to view the 11:40am. I had my Taters burger and chips as the movie started.

I will not make a review since like me; I know most of you liked it! And we all have our favorite parts from it. What was yours? Mine was when Gary Oldman returned from the dead. Hehehe. Go Sirius Black! Haha, wrong movie guys but he played Lt. James Gordon in the Dark Knight film. And huge props on Heath Andrew Ledger’s portrayal as the Joker! Creepy and haunting! I hate Batman’s voice though. Come on, what’s with that? hahaha

Sadly my tummy didn’t cooperate and luckily I finished the movie before something hellish happened to me there. Maybe the burger was a bad one? Hmmm… But I still got the time to stroll and look for a new cap and a new pair of shorts. But later I realize I’m saving money, for OUR future. Hehehe

It’s good to take some time off right after exam week. It’s also nice to look into something after a very tiring and sleepless week. I was hesitant to go to Trinoma that day but I think I deserve a break right? It kills your thoughts of thinking about the forthcoming “result week”.

Adding to this post I want to clear some things, some misconception about Ced and some revelations as well.

First – not every med student is as rich as you thought. Sabi nga nila, sapat na yung makakain 3 beses isang araw. My parents just saved enough money for me to pursue this.

Second – I’m used to house chores. I clean my room, wash and iron my own clothes here. Not just because I want to save money… I’m OC that way. Hehe

Third – I’m not a spoiled brat. Haha

Fourth – I’m just plain playful, I’m not a flirt! Hahahaha

Fifth – I’m a coy person. Really!

Sixth – I’m a happy person, bubbly as some may say. But happy people are good at hiding their true feelings.

Seventh – I have some trust issues.

Eight – I like taking pictures of landscapes. Ergo my face is a landscape! Haha

Ninth – I get easily affected when someone talks about my weight. I know I’m a guy but come on, that doesn’t mean I’m insensitive.

Tenth – Ced is just my pen name.

Count the hehehes anh hahahas. walang balikan para bilangin! =p