Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Irregular irregularities

No, I’m not talking about an abnormal heart sound. I’ll be honest with most of you. The reason why I wasn’t active in blogging recently or my posts are not that interesting is that something happened to me in school. You know my status, I’m an irregular student (please don’t get me wrong, I’m not even proud of this) and recently I thought everything was ok. I have high marks on some of my subjects, but on some I wasn’t really expecting that something wrong would happen.

I went to school this morning to check the promotion board and to my surprise my name was not on the roaster of those who will take removals. You see I was expecting to take at least 2 subjects and sadly my name wasn’t there. I checked my professors and they’re not available. I came back this afternoon hoping I could talk to someone and to my luck one of the resident coordinators was there. I asked if I can take a look at my paper, and to my doom I only lack 4 points to pass the exam. I asked if I can recheck the questionnaire for some corrections. He allowed me to do so. I saw 2 corrections and he accepted my answers. And to my bad, I didn’t found what I need.


I’m really depressed now. I don’t know what will I do. I love my parents, my bros and sis much more because after I called each of them they supported me to every bit of my decisions and said that it’s ok. They said I’m still young. That they know I gave everything. I did give everything, and still it wasn’t enough. But I cannot accept the fact that I’ll end to this situation again. I’m ashamed of myself and felt demoralized. I’m tired. I want to give up. I haven’t spoken to Cath either. I don’t want to be an encumbrance to her and an interruption to her vacation. I want to stop blogging as well. Please pray for me.

21 comments:

jep said...

ahmmm i dont know what to say... speechless.. ahmmm

stay lang ako dito sa blog mo... kahit presence lang.. mahirap ng magsalita eh...

:hugs:

cedeux said...

oks lang. salamat jep=]

coldman said...

Ayaw ko mang sabihin, pero may kulang sa ginawa mo, PERO lahat naman may dahilan kung bakit.

But, I still hope that everything will go well. =)

Pray, it helps.

my-so-called-Quest said...

salamat kuya sa pagdaan.
lam ko may kulang pa...
pero parang dami ko na sinayang...

john be anonymous said...

ayos lang yan, e ano naman kung irregular, remember, walang regular kung walang irregular.. sauce..

my-so-called-Quest said...

hehe, slamat john.

kingdaddyrich said...

naku. paano ba ito.. tsk tsk.. hindi ko alam kung paano gagawin dito.

my-so-called-Quest said...

gagawin sa?
salamat kdr...

KRIS JASPER said...

Dont worry, to fail is human (??? saan ko kaya nabasa eto?).

seriously, pwede bang e retake yan? double ur effort on the next one.. surely maipapasa mo rin yan.

Ingat lang.

my-so-called-Quest said...

@kuyakris - pwede naman kuya pero ayawko ng ma-delay.

dak said...

oh my really?! ahm, i dunno what to say...

*[pats you back]

my-so-called-Quest said...

@docDak - hay.. di ko na rin alam gagawin.. gusto ko muna mawala ng ilang araw...

FerBert said...

ah eh..
tsktsktsk
pareho tayo ng kalagayan ngayon kuya..

papatapon na nga
ako sa probinsya eh..
tsktsktsk


gusto ko ng mamatay kase ikalawang beses ko na ito.. nahihiya na ko sa pamilya ko.

ge smile na lang tayo baka sakaling mawala tong nararamdaman naten ngayon.. :D

my-so-called-Quest said...

@fb - di ko alam kung step forward ako or backward. di ko na tlaga alam=[

Dakilang Tambay said...

mk.. alam ko kaya mo yan. may dahilan ang lahat at kung ano man yun, nandito kami para sumuporta sayo. ano pa't naging MK kita.

kaya mo yan..hug na lang kita.. *hug*

acey said...

oh my gosh, i'm so sorry to hear all this. we're all here to support you... we'll pray for a miracle, ok? everything will go well...

my-so-called-Quest said...

@acey - salamat po ng marami.

my-so-called-Quest said...

@mia - salamat ng marami Mk. ingats ka plagi=]

lunes said...

hmmm.. sabi nga ng ilang bloggers "everything happens for a reason"

kapit ka lang ced.. good people got their reward late, but in best package!

chase / chubz said...

its like the song.. i did my best but i guess my best wasn't good enough..
but if you really love what you do.. go. persevere. don't give up!

mnel said...

oh ced... i didn't know that this happened. =( i feel so bad. di man lang ako nakasagap agad ng balita. i don't know what to say. it saddens me really. =(

i hope you're okay now. God has plans for everyone of us. Someday, we will all understand why we're going through a lot of irregularities in our life.

Here's a hug for you.

*hug*