Irregular irregularities

No, I’m not talking about an abnormal heart sound. I’ll be honest with most of you. The reason why I wasn’t active in blogging recently or my posts are not that interesting is that something happened to me in school. You know my status, I’m an irregular student (please don’t get me wrong, I’m not even proud of this) and recently I thought everything was ok. I have high marks on some of my subjects, but on some I wasn’t really expecting that something wrong would happen.

I went to school this morning to check the promotion board and to my surprise my name was not on the roaster of those who will take removals. You see I was expecting to take at least 2 subjects and sadly my name wasn’t there. I checked my professors and they’re not available. I came back this afternoon hoping I could talk to someone and to my luck one of the resident coordinators was there. I asked if I can take a look at my paper, and to my doom I only lack 4 points to pass the exam. I asked if I can recheck the questionnaire for some corrections. He allowed me to do so. I saw 2 corrections and he accepted my answers. And to my bad, I didn’t found what I need.

I’m really depressed now. I don’t know what will I do. I love my parents, my bros and sis much more because after I called each of them they supported me to every bit of my decisions and said that it’s ok. They said I’m still young. That they know I gave everything. I did give everything, and still it wasn’t enough. But I cannot accept the fact that I’ll end to this situation again. I’m ashamed of myself and felt demoralized. I’m tired. I want to give up. I haven’t spoken to Cath either. I don’t want to be an encumbrance to her and an interruption to her vacation. I want to stop blogging as well. Please pray for me.

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