Brat Attack

When you are the youngest in the family, most people assume you are the spoiled one, seeks attention, irresponsible, careless and naïve and sadly, most of the time you are compared.

But on some point, this description is not always applicable. Maybe due to some experiences some of this horrible depiction will be unsuitable. I really don’t get some people after they asked whether you’re in the eldest to youngest group and if you answered the latter they will imply that you belong to that. Sad but always true…

I have my fair share of not so good experiences and those times really made me feel like I’m a burden. Up to now I still do feel I’m a burden. I never asked my parents for anything as I always tell you. I preferred staying at home. I am not saying I’m the most responsible maybe I’m really just OC.

But what disappoints me really is when you’re the youngest but one of your elder sibling acts like he/she was the one. The youngest should be looking up to that person but instead what he sees is the immaturity of the older one and more worst is when the youngest acts more maturely on the elder one. That really disappoints me. You disappoint me!

Funny thing you are a late bloomer and we need to understand that. But at least be sensitive to your housemates. Maybe I expected a lot from you but you keep on missing your responsibilities. Grow up Bro!

You’ve been good to me and I know you still care but what I wanted to point out is what if you have to live alone? How will you cope up? Do you know how tough to get sick when you’re alone? You have all the benefits here at home but I have to tell you nothing last forever.

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X’s - badtrip wala yung labandera namin, humabol pa sa last day ng bakasyon ko ang sang tambak na labada. Ahuhuhu…

Mix Emotions

I really can’t identify what I really feel right now. Sad, angry, sick/scared, happy and excited …

Let me tell you why...

Since yesterday I’m just sad. I’ve been wearing this plastic smile around campus up to my dorm. Some of my friends, the ones I’m with since first year are planning to transfer or in verge of leaving med school. One has to go as a consequence of his status in med school. This person who’s been a brother to me, whom I look up to and respect each other. His family is well-off but he chooses to live simply. He’s here for his family and his future. I just can’t believe that he’s not given a chance. I saw this person’s efforts to pass; I know he gave everything in terms of studying and staying up late just to study. He hasn’t told me what his plans are. And two other close friends are in the same situation where I was last semester. I just don’t know how to give them the right advice, they’re planning to transfer. As much as I want, I don’t want them to go… They were great companies; they are the ones who I want to be with when we receive that diploma and soon call ourselves physicians.

I’m angry cause I blame the recent scandal that happened here… The leakage… because of that, most of us have to suffer from it. I’m angry for the not so fair treatment they give to different batch, how they favor the ones who have control. I’m angry that we did everything, almost everything and it seems that it’s not enough. It felt like it was never enough. It makes me wanna give up…

Sick and scared literally. I have hyperacidity attacks and they occur often now. Kind of my fault, I enjoy so much iced tea, frapps and coffee based drinks and it’s summer. Last time I had a hyperacidic attack I salivate so much and I wanted to vomit. Scared that last time I was hospitalized I refused to have an endoscopy… I hope this is nothing… I hope everything will be well…

Despite of it all, I’m a little happy, because after 5 exhausting months and very much wearing exams, I’m coming and staying home for long. Happy that I will see parents, my bro’s and my dogs; happy that I have 2 precious months as a vacation… happy that I can rest and compensate the hours of sleep that I’m lacking. I’m happy that I have so many plans to do during this vacation; I hope I can accomplish them all. hehe

Excited that Cath’s birthday is fast approaching. (17 days to be exact!) One of the reasons why I make this post is to ask you guys what kind of surprise or gift that I will give. I have a plan already but I really need your great ideas. I’m sure you have lots of it. Please please please!!! I just want it to be simple, something sweet and between the two of us and something that she will never forget and will really like. Advance thank you all.=]