Oh No I Didn’t

(With matching head snap!)

I thought I will break my own record for not using internet for 2 days straight. Out of desperation, last weekend I connected online via PLDT vibe. It sucks!!! Seriously! Haha! You know how it feels when your connection makes you want to slam your laptop and break it into pieces. That’s how slow it was. I refreshed the page for the nth time. But aside from that, at least I managed my psychotic desperation to go online!

have to erase my URL!


But I thought I can handle not going online this weekend, sadly, I was very tempted to use my brother’s qwerty! And I did! Just to visit my blog! Hehe! Do you have any idea how much is the online connection using a smart sim?





yummy! like me! hehehe



Then I baked brownies last Saturday afternoon! I know, I’m quite a homemaker, baby maker, and home wrecker. Hehehe


But seriously I learned how to cook from my mom; she’s a math and a home economics teacher from my elementary school. We had yayas before but when we were old enough my mom decided we should do our own chores, from cleaning, washing laundry and even ironing.

It’s a good investment for me and I’m thankful that before I live by myself I learned how to do those things and it makes living a lot easier.

Mix Emotions

I really can’t identify what I really feel right now. Sad, angry, sick/scared, happy and excited …

Let me tell you why...

Since yesterday I’m just sad. I’ve been wearing this plastic smile around campus up to my dorm. Some of my friends, the ones I’m with since first year are planning to transfer or in verge of leaving med school. One has to go as a consequence of his status in med school. This person who’s been a brother to me, whom I look up to and respect each other. His family is well-off but he chooses to live simply. He’s here for his family and his future. I just can’t believe that he’s not given a chance. I saw this person’s efforts to pass; I know he gave everything in terms of studying and staying up late just to study. He hasn’t told me what his plans are. And two other close friends are in the same situation where I was last semester. I just don’t know how to give them the right advice, they’re planning to transfer. As much as I want, I don’t want them to go… They were great companies; they are the ones who I want to be with when we receive that diploma and soon call ourselves physicians.

I’m angry cause I blame the recent scandal that happened here… The leakage… because of that, most of us have to suffer from it. I’m angry for the not so fair treatment they give to different batch, how they favor the ones who have control. I’m angry that we did everything, almost everything and it seems that it’s not enough. It felt like it was never enough. It makes me wanna give up…

Sick and scared literally. I have hyperacidity attacks and they occur often now. Kind of my fault, I enjoy so much iced tea, frapps and coffee based drinks and it’s summer. Last time I had a hyperacidic attack I salivate so much and I wanted to vomit. Scared that last time I was hospitalized I refused to have an endoscopy… I hope this is nothing… I hope everything will be well…

Despite of it all, I’m a little happy, because after 5 exhausting months and very much wearing exams, I’m coming and staying home for long. Happy that I will see parents, my bro’s and my dogs; happy that I have 2 precious months as a vacation… happy that I can rest and compensate the hours of sleep that I’m lacking. I’m happy that I have so many plans to do during this vacation; I hope I can accomplish them all. hehe

Excited that Cath’s birthday is fast approaching. (17 days to be exact!) One of the reasons why I make this post is to ask you guys what kind of surprise or gift that I will give. I have a plan already but I really need your great ideas. I’m sure you have lots of it. Please please please!!! I just want it to be simple, something sweet and between the two of us and something that she will never forget and will really like. Advance thank you all.=]